I may be down, but I’m not out.

To say Ironman training isn’t hard on a marriage is an understatement. Dumping 20 hours a week into a completely selfish and incredibly self-involved goal is hard on even the most solid marriages.

On multiple occasions I swore up and down that after CDA, I would never do another full IM. Ever. That is until IM CDA wasn’t everything I had hoped for.

In the moment that I was falling apart, burying myself in ‘what ifs’, pouting and feeling sorry for myself, my incredible husband began researching IMs coming up. He said,” you are ready, you won’t be happy until you complete it, so let’s find one coming up, and do this this”.

And that’s how you know that you are married to the one person in this world that loves you and knows you on such a deeper level than anyone could begin to understand.

He’s right. I can’t be happy without. I can’t have done two years of training and not achieve what I set out for. I can not.

So we researched races (well, mostly Bill did). I redid my training schedule, for the next six weeks. So Maryland it is. Six weeks from CDA.

So this morning, on what was supposed to be my heavenly, much awaited week of sleeping in, I was back in the pool and back on my bike.


I may be down. But I’m not out.

And I am married to the absolute best, most supportive, thoughtful, selfless man I could have ever dreamed to have found. I am blessed.


Today I am not an Ironman, but I’m not giving up

Well to say that this weekend was an emotional journey doesn’t even begin to touch my feelings on things.

Not reaching my Ironman dreams was soul-crushing to say the least.

My morning started off kind of hectic, losing my phone in the dark at the drop bags. Thankfully a volunteer found it and returned it to Twila who had been texting me.

My swim was great. It was the best I’ve felt in the water ever. The water was a tad choppy due to the wind and the moving boats/jet skis added some swells. But I focused hard on my swim and breathing and finished feeling great.

Ran into the changing tent to my bike bag and quickly changed. Only to realize that my nutrition/hydration was in that bag. The problem with that is it was the nutrition/hydration that I needed for the second 56 mile loop. I asked the volunteer if there was anyway that someone could get it to Special Needs, where you would swap it out, but she said no, that they had been delivered hours ago. I knew then that my day was about to take a horrible nose dive.

I ran out and on to my bike. Loop one (the first 56 miles) went great. I felt strong, my nutrition was on point. I finished a touch faster than my plan.

Went into to special needs, where my nutrition for the next 56 miles should have been. I secretly had held out hope that someone had gotten it there. Nope. I didn’t freak out. Just tried to figure out how water and Gatorade (which doesn’t sit well for me), could limp me along to the run start, where I would have my running nutrition available.

The second loop started out fine, until about mile 75… Then things started to unwind. I was not holding up well. Between the heat, my lack of nutrition and the Gatorade and the wind, I was losing time fast. I could feel my body fading. At mile 105, I was pulled from the course.


I spent the evening pouting. Thinking and rethinking what my race would have been had it gone better.

My husband, who has been an amazing support through all of this training/racing began research races that are coming up. I have the base already, so what’s another 5 weeks on intense training? If anything, I’ll be going at it with a whole new level of drive.

So there you have it. Maryland 140.6 will be my Ironman.

TheUltimate Ironman CDA Packing List

Tidbit Tuesday – Ironman Packing List

Well, here it is. My Ironman packing list!

TheUltimate Ironman CDA Packing List

  • USAT membership
  • ID
  • Bike
  • Wetsuit
  • OGIO Bag
  • Inhaler
  • 4 pairs of socks
  • Biofreeze
  • Post Race Bag (Slippers, Phone, Compression Socks, naproxen, lacrosse ball, comfy clothes)
  • Foam Roller and ball
  • Bike pump
  • Watch & plug in
  • Transition mat
  • Nuun hat
  • Light clip
  • Bike bags
  • Pearl Izumi Bike Shoes
  • Wattie Ink Tri shorts
  • Zoot sports bra
  • Pearl Izumi pink jersey
  • Pearl Izumi pink jacket
  • Pearl Izumi windbreaker
  • vaseline
  • Smith Optics helmet
  • headband
  • hair ties (extras)
  • Smith Optics sunglasses
  • Mizuno running sports bra
  • Mizuno running shorts
  • Mizuno running tee
  • Mizuno jacket
  • Mizuno running shoes
  • flip belt or bib holder
  • throw away towel
  • throw away clothes
  • throw away shoes
  • Aqua Sphere goggles


  • Fuel, Hydration and Nutrition
  • Water Bottle
  • Running Water Pod
  • Special Needs Snacks!

I really, really, really hope that I haven’t forgotten anything… Feel free to drop a comment below if you can think of anything I have forgotten.


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Serious Sunday Prep

This is it, the most serious Sunday prep yet.

  • Prep final week of training for IM
  • Meal plan for the week and grocery shopping
  • Plan out nutrition for race day
  • Plan out all the race bags (5!!!!)

This morning we had a terrific 50 mile bike ride. It wasn’t that long ago that 50 miles was the furthest we had ridden, and today it was an easy ride. Hurray!


Next Week’s Training plan:

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Monday Motivation

13 days out from Ironman CDA. The realness of it is really starting to sink in… Training has started to trend down and I am definitely over-thinking the entire thing. The next two weeks will  be a heavy focus on the mental aspect.

Happy Monday!



What do ya know Wednesday : Infinit Nutrition

So I am totally digging Infinit Nutrition! I am so super happy that I switched to this nutrition when I did. I have never felt that my nutrition has been more on point than it is right now!!!


First up, I love the Custom Blend. You go through and determine what your individual needs are. Such as, are you a heavy sweater? Do you want caffeine? How do you like your carb ratio? I seriously love that you dial it all in for your personal needs. Then you pick the flavor and NAME IT! Love.


Then, I love the MUD. It’s like having the most delicious, cold, coffee and protein shake all in one! It has replaced my morning coffee (at least most of the time) and I LOVE it!!!


And, I recently started using the :GO FAR which is designed for 4 hour plus workouts and doesn’t taste bad after sitting in the sun that long or longer. As well as the :JET FUEL which contains a higher percentage of INFINIT Glucose for energy and faster absorbtion along with 125 mg of caffeine, so you know, I can kick ass.


If you are interested in checking them out, you will not regret it! Click here: Infinit Nutrition and use this code to get $5 off: INFINIT-7JURP 


Tidbit Tuesday: CDA Athlete Guide


I cannot even tell you how many times I have read this… Too many.


Or done the math on the absolute longest I can take on the course and still walk away with that Finisher’s Medal.


Or wondered who in the hell decided that you had to get out of the water between lap and lap two of the swim… If you have followed my blog long and had the privilege of seeing my post 1.2mile swim pics, just wait, that 2.4 mile swim pic is going to be twice as awful…


Then I slightly freak out over 112 miles of crazy hills that make up the CDA Ironman course.



Then think to myself, like a marathon isn’t hard enough, why not tack those 26.2 miles onto the end of the swim and bike…


Then find comfort in the idea that crawling is just fine…😦




Sunday Prep

Super challenging ride today! 80 miles, starting in the freezing cold (44 degrees) and ending in the heat of the day (88 degrees). Giant hills (4,448 elevation gain). Mean bike chasing, leg eating dogs. Beautiful scenery. Best training partner in the world.


The realness of the Ironman being 4 weeks away is really starting to sink in. And to be perfectly honest, I could not be more terrified. Next weekends training schedule.

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But hell, it’s go time. Too late to freak out or back out now.